Hi all,
I am glad to let you know, (for those of you who were in the know), that tests now confirm that I have not got cancer of the womb and that another condition is present that is treatable. Maybe not comfortable but treatable.
However, I did spend a few days wondering, (until the tests came back), if I was about to die or not. Now this is not a new condition for me since I have had about three near death experiences, (and by that I mean I nearly physically died not that I had the light at the end of the tunnel experience etc), and I also live with a life threatening condition. The symptoms of my condition, which is a neurological malfunction, are kept in check by the wonders of modern medicine and thus I am allowed to live.
However, as I thought about death for a few hours several thoughts came to me and one particular one is that in facing death I think we really come know our core being and temperament. My two initial thoughts if I were to be diagnosed with terminal cancer were these:-
(a) What will I have left the world that is of value and the best of me?
(b) I will fight to stay alive with every last breath because although I am not afraid of death I love and embrace life.
The second thought reflects my temperament but the first one was the most important. And after thinking for a while I knew the answer. The best I will leave the world of myself will be my writings and my poetry.
Not even my children, because as you know I believe like Kahlil Gibran that children come through you, but not of you. Children come from the God/Goddess.
In a sense so does everything but in the case of my writings and poetry they come from the God/Goddess essence that is also manifest in me. I think this is also true of all artists.
So my question to you is: what upon death could you say you had given to the world that was the best of yourself? It's a good question to ponder now, while you are still alive as I found out yesterday.
Until next time,
As always,
KK
I am glad to let you know, (for those of you who were in the know), that tests now confirm that I have not got cancer of the womb and that another condition is present that is treatable. Maybe not comfortable but treatable.
However, I did spend a few days wondering, (until the tests came back), if I was about to die or not. Now this is not a new condition for me since I have had about three near death experiences, (and by that I mean I nearly physically died not that I had the light at the end of the tunnel experience etc), and I also live with a life threatening condition. The symptoms of my condition, which is a neurological malfunction, are kept in check by the wonders of modern medicine and thus I am allowed to live.
However, as I thought about death for a few hours several thoughts came to me and one particular one is that in facing death I think we really come know our core being and temperament. My two initial thoughts if I were to be diagnosed with terminal cancer were these:-
(a) What will I have left the world that is of value and the best of me?
(b) I will fight to stay alive with every last breath because although I am not afraid of death I love and embrace life.
The second thought reflects my temperament but the first one was the most important. And after thinking for a while I knew the answer. The best I will leave the world of myself will be my writings and my poetry.
Not even my children, because as you know I believe like Kahlil Gibran that children come through you, but not of you. Children come from the God/Goddess.
In a sense so does everything but in the case of my writings and poetry they come from the God/Goddess essence that is also manifest in me. I think this is also true of all artists.
So my question to you is: what upon death could you say you had given to the world that was the best of yourself? It's a good question to ponder now, while you are still alive as I found out yesterday.
Until next time,
As always,
KK
